Life as we know it

So here I sit at work.. bored again.. Daydreaming which I so often do. I'm waiting for 5 o'clock to roll around so I can blast out of here and meet Kody at the barn to go ride.

Ah yes, so much I haven't written about. The two important things in the sentence above that I have not discussed yet: Kody my boyfriend, (still feels weird using the "B" word) and Otie my horse. There is the saying "I've got my horse, I've got my dog, I dont need a cowboy" which is what I used to believe. However, my saying is now, "I've got my horse, I've got my dogs, I've got my daughter, but it is sure nice having a cowboy too."

Kody and I have been friends for a long time. Since we were 14 in fact. When I first learned how to ride I learned from an amazing gentleman named Noel Skinner. I learned everything I know about horses from this kind man. Through out that summer of my life, I met his grandchildren Mackenzie and Kody. I was not initially accepted as part of their group, but quickly we became inseparable.  As the story goes, I fell in love with Kody. I fell hard. All though out high school, I chased him around. After high school, he chased me around. We have been on and off, near and far, friends and more. The last time we tried, I talked myself out of it. I was convinced that he would always love me more than I him, I was convinced that him being so caring, devoted, honest, and loving was a bad thing. I was afraid of someone that would go to the end of the world for me.  So I called things off and continued in my journey of dating every type of asshole you could possibly date. I chased boys that only wanted one thing, I chased boys that lied, I chased boys that cheated. Kody and I always kept in touch, our philosophy was that we would rather be friend than nothing at all. Oddly I couldn't help but feel a small ping of jealousy when I'd see him with other girls. I'm sure he felt the same towards me. So one night, while I was staying up way to late watching Criminal Minds, I got a text from him asking what he did wrong with us. I didn't know how to respond. I sat and thought about it and came to the conclusion it was my fault. I was afraid. I had my guards up. I wasn't ready.  So here we are, trying it all again. This time, we aren't young, we aren't afraid, and we aren't far apart. I have to say, I am still shaking in my boots with fear, but it's nice to have someone there for you and that loves you for who you are.

Another thing that's great about Kody, is that he inspires me to ride more than I have in years. I love riding, it makes me whole. It makes me feel so alive. Even if its just a 5 minute ride around the arena or a 5 hour ride up a mountain. I love that I have someone to share that with.

My horse, Little Whiz Otie, has such potential. We raised him out of my show mare Josie. He is stunning and talented. Although he is pretty green and has a lot to learn. We will see if we can make it to the big leagues if I can stay dedicated. I have dreamed about this for years, it just seems like every time I try to work at it I loose sight. Things in life happen and I get down and when I'm down I don't ride. Kody is great because he takes me a long and gives me an excuse to ride. We'll see how things go :)

The best worst dog ever..

I have not moved from my desk for approximately 3 hours. So I have decided it is time to write more.

The heaviest thing on my mind at the current moment is the declining health of my Pit Bull "Vinny Man".

Some back ground on Vinny. He is a beautiful blue and white Pit Bull. I had adopted him from my shelter in West Jordan in September of 2010. Vinny was my first abuse case, being kenneled for the first 11 months of his life with no interaction. We had him for approximately a  month after that in our quarantine kennels. He was a mess, his white was far from white and everyone else deemed him "scary" looking.  I fell instantly in love with him. I spent that month making sure he had an extra fluffy blanket and an extra cookie in the morning. A few weeks before Vinny was released from quarantine pending the owner releasing his rights to him, I had to put my German Shepherd Zuka down due to a pancreatic problem. The day that Vinny was available for adoption we ran out of space to keep him available to the public. I was faced with the decision to take him home or let the shelter put him down.  Of course my tender heart couldn't let that happen...

A few months ago he developed a bump on the very top of his spine. The first time I took him to see Doc (Dr Anderson at Southeast Valley Veterinary Clinic - my old place of employment) we decided that it was most likely a cyst from an injury. Vinny likes to rough house with my parents dog. Doc said that if it was indeed a cyst it should go away on its own. Slowly Vinny became more and more like Quasimodo. This lump didn't seem to effect him in any way, not neurologically and didn't seem to be painful. Then Saturday morning, I had been staying with my parents dogs while they were out of town, and Vinny came inside unable to use his hind leg. I panicked, but again he didn't seem painful, it just dangled there like he had no control over it. Again, we went to go see Doc. This time we xrayed his back and with in 30 seconds of the image loading on the computer screen Doc gave me the news I had been dreading. Vinny has a spinal tumor that is growing between his disks, because of its placement, it was inoperable. Doc suggested a biopsy to see what type of tumor we were dealing with.

Monday morning I dropped Vinny off for a biopsy. Now we just wait the results.

 All of this has been extremely hard on me, yet some how Vinny still has a silly smile on his face and wags his tail. Its hard to think that I wont be able to spend 10+ years with such an amazing animal. I am not going to make any drastic decisions until he doesn't smile anymore, until then, keep Vinny Man in your thoughts. Such as rough start to life, at least the last year and a half have been better.

The first of many

February 21, 2012.

I've decided to try my hand in Blogging, I figured I cant "dis" something I have never tried. So here it goes :)

For those of you who don't know me, or don't know me all that well, I figured I'd start by telling you a little bit about who I am.

That is quite the loaded question. Who am I? Sitting down and actually pondering this question kept me busy for most of the afternoon on an extremely slow day at work.  I have come to this:

I am a mother of a beautiful 5 year old little Angel (most of the time) named Audree Elizabeth Taylor.. No I did not intentionally give her that middle and last name. To be honest, I had to Google "Elizabeth Taylor" from the hospital room. Audree is an amazing child. She is smart, beautiful, talented, strong willed, stubborn, and simply just a true entertainer. All of those make for an amazingly interesting and entertaining combination. She is her mother's child for sure. With all that said, I am blessed for being part of such an amazing child's life. Mark my words, she will change the world.

I'm currently working for Animal Control for West Jordan City. I have been here for a year and a half and I can honestly say that this job is not what I thought it would be. I went from my dream job as a veterinary technician to this. It has been a hard transition and I have become one of those people who hate their job.

I built my first house last year in Saratoga Springs. It is a 3 bedroom and a 2 1/2 bathroom. It is the perfect sizer for a starter home. Its so nice to be able to call it mine! Someday I'll be able to unpack all the boxes of junk I have toted with me from house to house over the years. I am slowly starting to personalize my house with pictures and decorations, both of which I have not been able to do before. My parents and I have been working on my yard, leveling and retaining, soon we'll be putting up fences and sprinklers and finally grass! I can't wait for summer bbq's and enjoying MY house. :)

I have the most amazing family and friends in the world and I am truly blessed to have these special people in my lief. My life would not be the same with out them! You know who you are and thank you for loving me for who I am. :)

With that said, I think this concludes my first "Blog". I must get some really work done today and besides I think I have carpel tunnel. Until next time.
:)